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wow...it's been almost 4 months since I last blogged...and so many things have happened since then.

I guess being in army and waiting for med results has changed my philosophy on time somewhat. I now feel that I'm just crawling along day by day until I know if I've been accepted into med or not. So I don't really care whether I'm at home or in camp - I'm just wasting time anyway. So I guess I don't really hate army that much now. As long as I eventually get into med, army isn't a waste of time - it's just a unfortunate way of having to pass time (but if I don't get in, it would be a huge waste of time, because your brain really rots inside). I really really want the days to pass by quickly until the results come out (but of course, they don't). Getting on with the rest of my life - that's what I want most at this point in time.

I also need release...I want to start shopping again without that voice at the back of my mind saying 'what's the point, you have to wear uniform in camp anyway'. And I really really really want to start singing in a choral group again. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but i HAVE to. I think being out of chorale for like 6+ months has made me realise that choral singing has become an irreplaceable part of my life, and I really won't be happy if I join any other CCA because I know what choral singing is like and how it made me feel. The way that souls blend together whilst harmonizing with each other in a choir is simply magical...and it's something I want to experience again and again for the rest of my life. I must find a way...somehow.

ok I'm just going to continue being bored and dreary until med results come out...

bye...

Ok. This is it. It happens tomorrow.

The day that I've been dreading for more than 10 years. Suddenly I feel that everything is so surreal. I'm just distracting myself by packing and doing little things so I don't have to think about it lol.

So many things could happen. Bad things. But I think I'm just going to try and be a robot and follow whatever they say and try not to step on anyone's toes.

Argh. There's a lot of things I'm afraid of. And not just being able to adapt to army life. I'm afraid I might change. I was talking to zhaofeng and he said a lot of ppl change in the army. They become more selfish, more hypocritical, picking out flaws in others but failing to recognise the same foibles in themselves. I don't wanna be like that.

And going to camp means having to give up all my little habits and idiosyncrasies. Like singing to myself and stuff. Argh.

But you know what, no matter how crappy things might become, at least I know that I have a life that's bigger than the army. I have a group of friends who love me and I love them too :D And I know they'll always be behind me no matter what.

Actually I wanted to write some tribute to chorale ppl but I got too caught up with packing. So I'm going to dedicate a song to all chorale peeps out there, both guys and gals. I fell in love with this song when I first listened to it. And it kinda encompasses what I feel about our journey together as a batch. The translation is below, and you can exercise your literary skills to figure out the meaning that I find in this song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LgqU13J5mT4

Translation:
I saw the swallow pass
In the pure morning sky:
She went, winging swiftly,
To the country where call
The sun and jasmine.
A long time I followed with my eyes
The migratory flight
While my dreaming soul
Accompanied her through the skies.
Ah! In the mysterious county!
And I had wanted, like her
To follow the same way,
I saw the swallow's flight!

To all my dear chorale friends, I'm going really going to miss you all like crap.

I'll be thinking of you,

Julian

06/01/09

adverti(SING) I Stay In Love says:
pls keep the mr toh one
adverti(SING) I Stay In Love says:
v precious
adverti(SING) I Stay In Love says:
he sing damn nice omg
VALori(SING) says:
HAHAHA of course, i teach him plszzz!!

Omg prom is tmr. Plsplspls make it work. Omg. This is really so impt to me. Like really. Considering that I made a horrible faux pas for sec 4 grad nite and also the fact that I went shopping for the first time in my life like, December last year. Omg so sad. BUT NEH NOT ANYMORE. It's time to make it hot, nanannana,
WANNA BE ON TOP?

Anyway, I wanna say that I'm so glad I joined chorale because I can meet all my friends like so often to sing songs :D. This may sound like quite DUH, but if you think about it, other CCAs can't really have the sort of gatherings we can. I mean what, the track team organises outings to go and, er, run? At most they will just like go for movie outings or wtvr and how many of those can u have without getting sian right? We, on the other hand, are gonna make tons of monae this Christmas and furthermore I really love singing Christmas songs with my friends w00t. Seriously, who wouldn't wanna join choir? There's only two types of people in the world - those who are in choir, and those who ain't :D Ok that was so rambly but really LOVE Y'ALL TO BITS.

On another note, I wanna wish ma skank Joshua all the best in army...please remain like, bouncy and cheerful (or at least outwardly, heh) and bitchy and skanky and slutty ok! Hope your skincare products work and u dont get pimples and stuffz. And u must come find us whenever u get out of army k!!!! And bitch with us about the ppl there. Gonna miss you.

OK PROM TMR TIME TO WORK IT, FIERCE

Ok I had a really horrible nightmare last night.

Firstly, I dreamt that I forgot to sit for Bio paper 3. I was like talking to my friends and then I randomly pointed out stuff on the timetable thing and then i realised that i MISSED A PAPER. I remember I was like talking to Lester than he was like 'oh yah, where were u for bio paper 3 ah?'. Then my heart started beating very fast and I woke up. It took me about half a minute to realise that it was just a dream.

Ok then after that, I went back to sleep, and this time, I dreamt that I was sitting for AO level Chinese, and that I forgot to come back for my zuowen after finishing the main paper. So my heart started beating very fast again and I woke up. And this one is even more ridiculous than the first because I already finished Chinese AOs like last year.

ANYWAY, ON TO HAPPIER THINGS

Today I met Cat in church for the FIRST TIME EVER despite both of us going to the same church all our lives. So I sat next to her and we had a sightsinging showdown heh...ok not really. But we two are damn pro at sightsinging, we gonna show those noobs at Christmas, yea. The woman next to me was quite funny. Everytime the pianist played a wrong note she was like 'oh my GOD' then after one song where the pianist screwed up like twice, she closed the songbook and said 'oh my God oh my God'. But at least she was loud and in tune :D

Ok prom is in like, 3 days!!!! YAYYYY love prom a lot despite all the stress. I think prom is such an important social rite of passage for JC students, and whoever doesnt think it's impt is seriously like, uncool and unfashionable. Ok I'm going to try and make my 10 dollar blazer work :D
And I'm proud to announce that I only spent 158 dollars on my entire prom outfit WOOOOOTZZZZ. Thanks to ppl like Joshua for bringing me around to find cheapo stuff :D

Ok gonna do my hair on Wed, it better turn out great (but honestly it cant be worse than my usual hairstyle heh heh). Or at least I hope not.

And I really love carolling a lot and a lot. I think without carolling I would just rot away for the entire of December.

Love y'all to bits.

argh ok prom is next wed.

STRESS, STRESSSSSSSSSS

I've been walking around orchard, vivo and bugis and either I don't like what I see, or whatever I like is way off budget. Oops.

I think I'll go with something safe in the end. Ho-hum.

bummer

Ok. Today's econs essay paper was really quite weird. The questions were phrased very weirdly and not in the way we were taught them.

This points to one thing.

Cambridge is getting bored of its own questions!

I think this is the general case. Bio p2, econs, history all show that cambridge is changing its questions such that students really really have to integrate knowledge from the most obscure parts of their syllabus together. Wow. Tough.

Oh well. All I can say is, good luck to subsequent batches cos they really aren't gonna have it easy. and TYS can go close shop already lol.

Go everyone!!!!!

Two weeks. 7 papers.

Ok I think I'm getting used to this.

ok today i had a mild panic attack cos i realised we only have 4 MORE DAYS AND I HAVENT TOUCHED MATHS

ok bye i shldnt waste time blogging

lol undead journal is quite funny though

Ok today started rather depressingly cos I woke up at 9 and ate breakfast and SLEPT AGAIN until 12. omg i srsly nd to stop doing that but my sofa is too comfy..mmmm..

And then I took a whopping 4 hours to do transition metals. urgh. thank goodness I finished chem.

And then I started bio and finished the first 4 topics in 4 hours :D Yay I love Bio now. I think Bio is much easier to grasp compared to chem. Unlike chem, u dont really need to APPLY anything....it's either you know it, or you don't. Plus the bio dept has made us mug the whole syllabus every single test and I think that's really helped. Like when I read the notes now, it's more of a revision than actual memory work. Yay love bio dept :D

Anyway last night I had a super funny/weird dream. I dreamt that it was after A's and the choir was practising for the World Youth Festival thing. In the shed in Costa Sands in Barczewo (lol rmb the place with the super huge flies?). I vaguely rmb Suet in the dream but cant rmb anyone else o_O.

Ok so we were singing Lux for the first time in months lol. Then Mr Toh cued us in and we sang the first note 'Luuuuuuuu'. And it was SO AIRY that Mr Toh's score fell off LOL. Then I dreamt that I was so tickled that I fell on the floor laughing and Mr Toh stared at me. Ok lol.

Can't wait for A's to come pls faster come and end our misery.